Q: I am facing new things which I have not faced before.
Very good. This new space is your reality. Whatsoever you have known up to now was not really you. It was the identity given by others – the parents, the society, the world. Now you are coming to encounter yourself.
Sometimes it will be very scary – so remember it. Sometimes you will feel that you are losing your identity… getting lost. So remember, that is how it has to be – and go into it. Lose all track of yourself, and then for the first time you will be back home. You have to dissolve into this new space.
There is going to be a great struggle between the old and the new. Ahead there is going to be almost a war within you, because the new will try to spread all over you, and the old will try to resist, to fight it back, not to allow it to happen. There is going to be a conflict, a wrestling, between you and you,
your past and your future, that which you have been up to now and that which you are going to be from now on.
So always remember that the past has to be dropped and the future has to be chosen. It is risky… the past is very secure, comfortable, convenient – but it is dead. It is like a grave. If you choose it, you choose death.
The future is very scary, frightening, but it is open. It is alive. It is adventure. Risk is there, insecurity is there, but that’s how life flowers – in insecurity. That’s how life comes to be integrated – in risk.
The more risk you take, the more grounded you are. Each moment will be a thrill – sometimes very frightening, sometimes very blissful. I can promise only one thing – that it will be a constant thrill,
frightening or blissful, but it .will be a thrill. Each moment you will be coming upon something new.
It will be a constant wonder. It will be both a wandering and a wondering.
From now onwards it will be very difficult for you to know who you are.
This new space will destroy all old identities, past formulations of your being, boundaries, demarcations, definitions.
This new space is very dangerous. It is like death. It can spread all over you. It is going to kill you utterly, completely.
But in that very destruction is creation. In that very destruction you will start having a new life which is eternal… which knows no beginning and no end… which is not of this world, and which is not of time and which is not of mind.
So if you can dare, the benediction is very close by. If you are ready to be crucified, the resurrection is waiting for you. So help this new spirit to grow. Help this new spirit to overpower you, to overwhelm
you, to efface you completely and to erase you completely. That’s what meditation is all about.
… whenever out of nothingness you feel an urgency to come. come, mm?
… I am this new space. So cooperate with it and you will be cooperating with me.
Surrender to it and you will be surrendering to me….
Q: I even stopped meditation. I don’t do it, and I was feeling disturbed about that. Everything seems to be routine, dull. I don’t know what to do with it. I want to know what it’s all about.
Just accept this state. Don’t condemn it. Don’t say that there is no enthusiasm, don’t say that it is dull – because these very words are antagonistic. They show a dislike – that you would like to be enthusiastic but there is no enthusiasm. You would like to be interested in many things and there is no interest. You would like to be very sharp and everything is dull.
Accept it so totally that there is no judgement. This is the way you are. And in fact what is there to be interested in life? The truth is that there is nothing much. What is there? It is a dull routine.
Just accept it and it will be a tremendous help. I’m not saying that by accepting it the enthusiasm will come back – no. I’m simply saying that by accepting it, you will not feel it as a lack of enthusiasm.
You will feel it as a sort of relaxation – the whole attitude changes. Then you will not call it dullness, you will call it a non-ambitiousness. And it makes a lot of difference what you call it.
There is a saying of Lao Tzu that the whole world seems to be very sharp and intelligent – only he is dull. But he was joking. He was saying that the whole world seems to be foolishly interested –
running and rushing here and there – for nothing!
Something has started to happen to you through meditation. That’s why you are feeling no interest.
A sort of renunciation is arising. So just go on working and remain uninterested – there is nothing to be interested in. By and by a great benediction will arise in you. Right now you are feeling restless because you feel that something is wrong. Once you accept it, the restlessness disappears and nothing is wrong. Then this is the way you are, and this is the way you have to grow.
As I can see, your energy is better than ever. As I can see, it is more settled, but this very settlement is giving you trouble. Even if interest in meditation has disappeared, let it go. There is no need to force meditation. This is the way meditation will happen to you.
Just sit silently. When you have nothing to do, just sit silently. Thoughts move in the mind – let them. Just be a watcher, and that too, not with a stress, with no tension. What else to do? Thoughts are moving and you are there, so you see them, but there is no need to concentrate. Just a very soft look… an unfocused look.
For three months be in this dullness. This dullness is going to function as a meditation. This is the way renunciation is coming to you. You will feel indifferent to many things – they are worthless. In fact the problem was that before you were feeling so interested and now you are not, so you think that something is missing. The problem was before, not now.
When a person becomes a little quiet, many things disappear and look foolish. Why go to the hotel and to the club and talk nonsense to people and wear masks and show faces and smile? For what? What is the point of it all?
This is good. So put your energy into your work, and the remaining time simply sit and rest, close your eyes. If you welcome this state, this state will give you great benefit. Great is going to be the pay-off, so don’t reject it. And read more and more Lao Tzu in these three months; that will be the right background. Just read a few lines from anywhere.
His whole tape is that whatsoever is, is good – his renunciation is tremendous. Even Buddha and Mahavir, their renunciation is not so total because they are still interested in achieving something –
maybe not in the world; they are interested in enlightenment.
Lao Tzu says, ’All nonsense! The world is nonsense – enlightenment too!’ He simply sits there doing nothing.
Just see the beauty of it. No interest means no desire. No enthusiasm means no passion, no fever, no madness. You are becoming saner, but you have been insane for so long that the sanity will look a little weird. You will have to get accustomed to it.
But I am happy. You may be dull – I bless you. Be really dull! And I don’t see restlessness. I see a certain tranquillity coming, a certain stillness descending on you. I can almost feel it and touch it; it is there. But you have a wrong attitude about it, so that is creating a barrier.
Drop that barrier and let it drown you completely, utterly.
Source: OSHO
… but i am serious about the puzzle guy. 